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A note from J: In the interests of not flooding your friends-pages, I am just going to c&p the latest entry from my blog - I haven't been writing an awful lot, but if you're interested you can read what I've missed crossposting here.



So: I went! I did it! (I'm number 1, as evidenced in that top left picture.)

Because I have the sense of direction of a thumbtack, I somehow ended up in a totally different city than I needed to be to get on the train. Seriously, I've driven to that train station a frillion times, I don't know how this happens to me other than the fact that I have the sense of direction of a thumbtack. I ended up being a half an hour out of my way and had to turn around to backtrack and finally get to the station I needed.

I have to thank the lady who sat down next to me on the Orange Line and talked at me (about her nails and her husband and people being rude on the train) for the ten minutes or so we shared a train - sincerely - I really needed the distraction. The nerves I lamented not feeling yesterday afternoon were in full force about an hour earlier than I even needed to wake up, and didn't abate until I was finished.

Despite all that...Collapse )

Maybe nothing will come of this audition - honestly, I'm thinking probably that will be the case - but I can at least be glad that I went. I also have to send out special thanks to my support system - both the ones that read this blog and those that don't - and an extra special thanks to PC for listening to/forcing me to recite my monologues and for playing arts & crafts with my headshots and resumes with me. ♥
 
 
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24 December 2011 @ 09:57 am
And the Secret Government Eggo Project is a go!

PC finished arranging last night, and he and I finished burning and assembling CDs this afternoon, so the Secret Government Eggo Project is officially done!

As you all might have guessed, the Secret Government Eggo Project is, actually, an album. A Christmas album, to be exact! In the interests of putting myself out there, I've decided to share some of the album with all of you that have traveled along on my journey with me!

(Eventually I will write about my ~*feelings*~ with regards to this, but not just yet.)


christmas! or: the secret government eggo project


Click on the album art above to be taken to my brand spanking new Bandcamp site, where you can listen to and download a sampling of tracks from the album! (I still haven't figured out most of it yet, you'll have to forgive me!)

Happy Holidays, everyone!
 
 
Current Mood: nervousnervous
Current Music: angels we have heard on high
 
 
Oh hi Livejournal, forgot to crosspost this. OOPS.

I have been deep, deep into self-loathing mode for the past couple of weeks, at least as far as singing (and acting, and Oh God What Am I Doing With My Life Someone Please Just Throw Me Off A Cliff So I Don't Need To Make Decisions) goes. Which is why I haven't been updating, despite the fact that yet more progress has been made on the Secret Government Eggo Project and the Christmas show goes up this weekend.

I figured no-one would want to hear about how yet another session went by where I started off with the highest of hopes but then plummeted back down into the valley of self-loathing and decided to call off the project entirely, only to have a fight with PC and decide not to abandon it after all. I figured no-one would want to hear yet again about how I loathe the sound of my own singing voice. And I'm probably right, so that's the last of it (FOR NOW, she intoned ominously).

So! Progress actually HAS been made on the SGEP, and this week we're looking to work almost every day to get my contributions (such as they are) all wrapped up. And then the magic of trying to make it sound good starts, a task that I do not envy. (Hahaha I lied about being done with the self-loathing.)

This weekend is the first weekend of the Christmas show - yay! We have dress rehearsal on Thursday and then the show starts again! I am looking forward to it, while also trying to keep an ear to the ground for anything that might be coming up soon. I am enjoying this - I mean, come on, I'm getting paid to play a teenaged Amy March at this point and sit around a beautiful historical house for a couple of hours in costume - but I look forward to getting to audition for things again, as well.

Oh, and someone contacted me about - essentially - doing photoshoots for a graphic novel, which might be interesting! I have to do a little bit of research and then also dig up my high-quality headshots to send along (as an "audition"). Note to self: remember to do that tonight. That might be fun, if I did get it!

Tonight, though, PC and I get down to business to defeat the huns to finish up the SGEP. I will stay positive! I will, I will!
 
 
07 November 2011 @ 11:56 pm
809334th verse, same as the first.

I probably don't need to regale you all yet again with the tales of my low self-esteem and various Issues with my singing voice, but I'm going to force myself to do it anyway because maybe addressing some of these issues will help me sort them out.

...aaaand of course after I write that I immediately distract myself with something else. Good job there.

Aaaand half a day later...Collapse )

This post has ceased to make sense and now I am done with it.
 
 
Current Music: shut your eyes; snow patrol
 
 
And with that, the Halloween season is over, and my stint at my first paid acting job is up.

I am sad to see it go, though it is a different sadness than the sadness that comes after a weekend's worth of performances. Having two or three months of rehearsal and then just a weekend of performance time is (I think) one of the injustices of community theatre. I understand why it happens - renting the space is always very expensive - but it seems such an awful lot of work and bonding only to not see those people again after just a weekend!

With a month-long run and not an awful lot of rehearsal time (and the fact that I'm always That Weird Girl in a cast & don't like to go out drinking), there wasn't as much bonding, and we did the show every five-ten minutes for four hours three nights a week, so I definitely feel like I got to perform a lot. And mainly isolated - only a couple of people had scenes with each other rather than monologues. So it was a very different experience! I enjoyed it, most definitely, and I will miss it - but I am also grateful for a short break!

Thankfully I'll be returning to the same place to be a part of the Christmas show, so I won't have to miss it for too long. That, and I am thrilled that I already have something professional lined up for the next season. I am pleased that our director liked me enough to want me to come back!

It looks like those rehearsals will start up next week, but it's a similar rehearsal schedule as this last show (that is, minimal). Since the scene I'm in is from Little Women, I do have my sisters (hee!) to rehearse with, so that will be fun! The shows are shorter, and there aren't as many of them - thank goodness, since I don't want to miss the entire Christmas season like I did the Halloween season! - but it will definitely be fun, too!

Plus, now work must begin in earnest on our Secret Government Eggo Project if it's to be ready for Christmas! <3
 
 
Current Music: thriller; michael jackson
 
 
 
I feel that the title of this post is pretty self-explanatory (though it is also a song lyric).

Sunday night - and it was night, my maestro is quite nocturnal - PC and I began our Secret Government Eggo Project. I, of course, began with a sense of trepidaton bordering on full-blown panic. With my heart in my throat, fingers vibrating with fear, I asked him "why? Why? Why is this so scary?" (Sometimes I repeat things three times for no reason.)

"I can't answer that for you," he said, and took my hand. I clutched at him and he squeezed my hand just hard enough to hurt. And away we went.

(I didn't hold his hand the entire time, though, he did have to conduct me. Which, strangely, helps.)

In any case, I didn't wheedle my way out of it completely (I can be very convincing when I am afraid of doing something!) and we got a lot of good material despite it being past midnight when we finished. All in all, it was more exhausting than the four-hour shift I had at my show the night previous.

If I keep doing this, maybe it will be like driving - I start off petrified and panicky, but eventually it won't be that big of a deal to me. Like driving, I'll still be constantly vigilant (because if you do driving wrong you can, you know, die), but I will be more comfortable and less inclined to panicked crying. One can only hope.

He really is very patient with me, he's somehow struck the balance between not letting me get away with anything and not wounding my delicate flower feelings. (Delicate floral feelings?) I'm enjoying it, so far - the work that he's done is beautiful, as usual, and I enjoy working with him. I just hope I'm not ruining it completely with my voice. D:
 
 
Current Music: road to joy; bright eyes
 
 
14 October 2011 @ 01:16 pm
So, uh, I guess I never did write how opening weekend went! Oops!

Opening weekend went really well! It was nice, the first weekend is shorter than subsequent weekends (7:30-9:30 as opposed to 7-11), so it was like easing in to what the rest of the month is going to be like. I do have to stock up on cough drops (I'm talking near-constantly for the entire time I'm there!) but other than that, I really like it! You can see everyone you're talking to, which is different than being onstage - it's basically people standing in a room with you. It can make it a little bit awkward when you're looking out at people and some of them are wide-eyed and hanging on your every word and then others are whispering to the person next to them.

Or when you have a famous person in the audience, which happened Saturday night. I had been warned beforehand but still when I saw a face that was familiar from movies and television I sort of got a bit of a mental jolt. My character is supposed to be a bit flustered anyway, so hopefully that worked out all right! Unfortunately, the gentleman in question had to listen to my monologue twice because the person in the room after mine got backlogged and about half of his group got stuck. So: sorry, famous guy! Hopefully I was entertaining on the second go-round as well as the first.

That happened for three or four groups on Saturday night, actually, which is definitely the most awkward situation that I've had thus far (seeing half of the same group when I walk into my room again, looking awkward and trying to get up the secret staircase to the next room). Thankfully, the director had a talk with the person after me in the show and helped her find a way to streamline everything so that we don't get backlog anymore. (Also, it's more fun when the group doesn't know there's a secret staircase in the room!) Everything in the show is timed really, really carefully, so that when one person takes a minute longer than they should, there's a ripple effect affecting the rooms that come prior to them and breaks the whole rhythm of the show. Sunday night, we definitely did not have that issue: we had a steady flow of people and zero backlog!


In other news, I haven't had a singing lesson in SO LONG and I really need to have another one soon. Between getting sick, the wedding, and this show going up (and being exhausted all the time) I haven't had a spare moment to email GG. Maybe next week! Hopefully next week.

In other other news, since we've both been sick and busy and also doing regular relationshippy stuff (shock! horror!), PC and I haven't had the chance to start on our Secret Government Eggo Project yet. He mentioned the other night that he was going to start working on one of the first songs so hopefully soon!
 
 
Tonight is opening night for the show in Salem!

Last night was dress rehearsal, and due to the living museum nature of the show, we all got a chance to walk through and see everyone else's scenes. It was wonderful to finally get into the space we'll be performing in, and getting a feel for the entire show. We've all heard each other do our monologues before, but this was the first time we got to see it in the actual space, which does indeed make a difference.

It's interesting, because the book the show is based on is set in the actual house we're performing in - it gives it an extra layer of authenticity. Add in how creaky and dark some of the rooms are, and the secret staircases!, and you have a recipe for a very unsettling but fun show.

I'm nervous, but mostly just tired! The shows this weekend are shorter than usual, so it'll be a nice ease-in to the rest of what this month is going to be like. Traffic is already horrendous getting in and out of Salem, but that's sort of to be expected, isn't it?

In related exciting news, the director spoke with me last night about coming back to do the Christmas show - she'd like me to play Amy in Little Women! YAY!! :D
 
 
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I had my second rehearsal for my new show last Thursday night, which consisted of me and the director - I wasn't as prepared as I might have (should have!) been, but I always work better when I have a bit of feedback and direction.

I actually do think that's one of my strengths as an actress (and maybe as a person?), the fact that I take direction well. Sometimes I get a gentle nudge in one direction and end up overdoing it a little bit and have to be pulled back, but for the most part I like to think that I am fairly good at taking the advice and direction as it's intended. So I intend to be super-prepared for my rehearsal on Tuesday, since I have enough of an idea of what she's looking for now, so I can expand upon it. My accent isn't coming along as easily as I'd like, but that's something I need to develop more of an ear for so I'm grateful for the practice.

PC and I have also started work on a project - a Secret Government Eggo Project, if you will - I was just going to say "actually, that would be an awesome name for a band or album" but googling the quote shows me I was too late getting to that idea - whatever, I'm still going to call this the Secret Government Eggo Project for now - also I am lost inside all of these dashes - - - ??

Anyway, as I was saying...Collapse )

I really just need to end this entry here because I've been sitting on it for too long!
 
 
Current Music: and then you kissed me; the cardigans
 
 
01 September 2011 @ 09:55 pm
Dear readers, I have wonderfully good news to impart to you today!

Your protagonist for the duration of this blog, one acting ingénue, is now officially a working actress!

Or, as Satine would say:

&quot;a REAL actress!&quot;
"a REAL actress!"


Hee! :D

This is the audition I mentioned in my last post, obliquely. It is for a museum in Salem, Massachusetts for the duration of the Halloween season. (Thankfully - THANKFULLY - the performances don't start until after my bff D's wedding!) I love Salem, I love Halloween, I love Victorian literature - especially Gothic novels!, I love history, and I love, love, love, love, LOVE feeling as though people believe in what I can do!

I got the job before I even left the audition, which is rare (to say the least) - the director pulled me aside on the conceit that she was asking me how far I'd had to drive but as people started to filter out she told me that she definitely wanted to cast me (though she wasn't sure in which part, yet). :D! I cannot even begin to express how thrilled I am that she wanted to cast me right off the bat - !!

I also talked to her about possibly coming to do the Christmas show, depending on who she has coming back from last year, which would be amazing as well!

Unfortunately, I had to "give notice" for Grease yesterday as well. As sad as it was - and it was sad! the director and the stage manager both went "nooooooo!!" when I told them - they were all very happy for me, and I didn't burn any bridges. They told me definitely to come back if they're doing something in the future. I was glad that I went down in person to talk to them about it instead of chickening out and calling (like I wanted to).

Tonight was my very first rehearsal and I couldn't be more excited!!
 
 
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